Hello Motivation! WHERE ARE YOU???!*#!

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OMG! I am so unmotivated!

Can’t seem to make up my mind on what and where to start!

I haven't painted that! I would love to be able topaint like this! It's just the photo software.

I haven’t painted that! I would love to be able to paint like this! It’s just the photo software and a pic of my messy table.

I made myself such a beautiful plan of tasks to reach goals , full of post-it papers  in all colours and precisely sorted.

And now I am stuck again!:-(
How to get motivated? I am even too unmotivated in doing nothing!!!

The sun is shining and it is warm outside, the best weather to go out in the parc and collect herbs.

My flat is a mess! In my sleeping room I have to move around piles of clean clothes,
I haven’t put in place yet and step around piles of clothes on the floor that I have to sort out.

My work space is full of piles of paper, empty bottles and dirty dishes, books, pens, full ashtray.

And tonight there is a party, I wanted to go to. Even this free time amusement IS STRESSING ME OUT!!!

 

I could just start with doing ONE thing, that will uplift me. But….

See, my bad mood is rising clouds outside! Maybe it will rain? So I cannot go and collect herbs today!!!
Yippie! task moved…procrastinated…to an unknown date…

ISN’T IT REALLY STRANGE THAT EVEN THE THINGS THAT ARE FUN TURN OUT TO  STRESS ME OUT???
AND THAT I CAN’T GET MOTIVATED EVEN FOR FUN THINGS???

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And the other thing is: I actually know how to help myself, I could burn some incense, get some essential oils that will get me motivated, but WTF!!!
I am especially unmotivated in helping myself!

Days like this….
I will leave you and me here without any solution, no advice…just an unmotivated mood!

Hey see, I actually got motivated to write this post, at least! Hurray???

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Improved And Confused: An ADD Work Life Day Story

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Yeah I  have done so much today! 🙂

I had a work date real late at 7 pm and needed to prepare a lot before that.

I researched accupuncture points and herbs for recipes for a specific condition.
Not that I havent done that several times, but where did I write that down??? I lost the papers or cant find them. Also every case is different, so I need to do research anyway.

A quick sketch of WHAT A MESS! (c) thefemmeaddon

A quick sketch of WHAT A MESS! (c) thefemmeaddon

But this time I actually did the research AND wrote it down on my computer so at least it is saved on the disc. Improve! Improve! 🙂

Then I felt so professional, when I called up a homeopathic company, to ask them about a specific remedy they make and if it suits to my client needs.

I say I felt professional, cuz it reminded me so much of games, that I used to play when I was a kid.

I had this kids post-office game with different forms, stamps and postage stamps and I loved to get everything sorted,  stamp it, write  and fill out the forms.
Yeah the kid forms to fill out, were easy and fun!:)
…not like the complicated adult forms, where You dont know what they want from You and where- in some cases- you have to be so specific and correct that if you make a mistake you pay a fee or go to jail / hell!!! 😦
I mean, no wonder so many people hate paper work if what you write can have a huge/ scary consequence!

I also loved to play something like a secretary or manager, where I would make  calls, arrange things and dates, order stuff….
Of course I didnt have to check my finances for ordering. Of course none of my calls were real…I talked to an imaginary person.
Of course none of the dates I arranged, I had actually to go to!
That was fun!!!:-)

It is often said, that ADDers should make a game of their tasks. Today  at least the call felt like a game and was fun. Afterwards.
Wanna know how my day went on? Continue reading

Essential oils for ADD / ADHD: Scattered, Unfocused, not getting anything done? Vetiver, Frankincense, Cypress and Rosemary

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Are you feeling scattered and can’t focus, are you all over the place and nowhere in particular and get nothing finished or done?
Yes, I know this sounds familiar, especially for us ADDers! But the good news is, there are essential oils from plants that can help! And the other good news is: I am eventually writing my post about this topic, that I have planned for such a long time. 😉

There are many essential oils out there and many can help with ADD symptoms. In this post I like to focus on 4 essential oils, that can give structure and help us to focus, concentrate and get things done

.… For all  You quick and short readers: I summarized the qualities of the essential oils in a short list at the end of the article. 😉 …

Essential oils can increase the level of Neurotransmitters in our body.
For example: Rosemary, Cypress and Frankincense can increase the Dopamin and Noradrenalin level– these neurotransmitters are said to be on a low level when having ADD /ADHD, cuz we consume them like a tasty chocolate cake- all of it -give it to me! 😉
Dopamin makes us happy, helps us to concentrate, gives us an emotionall drive and impuls, makes us feel good and gives a feeling of Joy and Confidence. Sounds good, huh? So … more of that please! With the help of Essential Oils, for example?

VETIVER ( Vetiveria or Chrysopogon zizanioides )- Hello Earth!

Vetiver Root Author: Sengai Podhuvan

The Essential Oil from  Vetiver is often discussed, when it comes to treatment of ADD with essential oils.
Vetiver is a grass that has a deep and branched root. From this root the essential oil is made through distillation. Vetiver is planted in several regions against soil erosion,  with its huge roots it helps to ” hold together” and stabilize the land.
This
stabilizing quality can also help us ” not to fall apart” emotionally.

Vetiver has an intense “grounding quality” , it helps us to come in contact with ourselves, feel our body and our needs. It is good for people who are all over the place or driven more by their heads than their hearts.
Vetiver is associated with the Earth element,  YIN energy and astrologically with the sign Taurus and the planet Venus.

VETIVER can help rational people and it also helps,  whenever you feel tense, nervous or exhausted. It can release tension and give you Energy, Strenght and Regeneration, like the strenght of the Earth that is holding and taking care of us. It  has a warm, deep and embracing quality. It can help us to be more tolerant and calm towards ourselves, our sorrows and emotional issues and also towards our environment.

Vetiver By Deepugn at ml.wikipedia [Public domain], via Wikimedia Commons

The scent of Vetiver has an intense earthy  tone, its colour is dark and the oil is very thick and sticky. Some like the smell others hate it, somedays it is nice, others not.
You only need  a small amount of the oil, the scent is so strong, about 1 drop only in 50 ml carrier oil or alcohol will be enough. You can warm the bottle with the Vetiver oil to thin it, for easier access.

From the following oils I am gonna talk about in this article, that can give you structure, this is the only YIN oil and the only one that has also an aphrodisiac, erotic aspect .
The next oils I mention are more cooler oils, that give clear structure and helps us to concentrate on and accomplish our tasks.

More about Vetiver against soil erosion, very interesting: http://vetiver.org/

and this one: click here ,  take a look at the pic with the roots, amazing!

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Desperate housewive cleaning day… Why does it take so long?

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I decided today to clean my windows and  frames. As the sun is shining I see for days and months how dirty they are.
This time I decided not to do the cleaning while listening to punk music or any other fast music as I usually do, but I listened to Mozartt’s Requiem and Dead Can Dance. Beautiful music and slow. that in fact was quite good and I kinda cleaned in meditation.

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Neat and clean window see-through

 

So I tried to stay focused and managed most of the time to do so, while taking a cigarette and spider solitaire break after every window. But still it took me ages. I needed that breaks, to not be too exhausted and finally stop my task, but puh! that took so long!

Went out later for food with a good friend and when I came back, I worked on cleaning the living room and do the dishes.

It feels like a whole day cleaning till late night and still my table is a mess, the hallway and sleeping room, too!

But I have shiny clean windows and my plants are nicely cut.
Is there any way ever to not feel like,  the whole day is gone when I do the cleaning and then it seems like nothing or very little have I  actually been done? 😦

In a way I know the answers:
If  I would do the cleaning very regular, like every day things wouldnt bee such a mess.
If I clean my windows on a regular base they wont be so dirty.
When everythig has its place. And if I place it back there after use.
If I would throw out many things.

andandand…I can hear my Mum’s advice ringing in my  ear….

Everything totally logic. But, it seems impossible to me to have and keep my house clean. And even when it is clean it is a mess very soon again. There are so many much more interesting things to do than cleaning! Like, making a mess. That is Logic! 🙂
Also it seems impossible to find a place for my things and especially putting them back to where they belong.

I would love to have a clean and tidy house. It would help me focusing, too. But I am horryfied  and bored, to do some coaching and get myself organised in that point. Seems such a waste of time…

And btw: Why do passing strangers, in particular men, think that cleaning windows is some private show just for them??? Even when I wear my old washed out ugly shirts?
My friend suggested to get some cleaning dress or appron with flowers, like some older ladies wear when they do the house work. I ll ask my grandma for one of hers!

Just in case I clean my windows again soon. 😉

Am I lazy? Article about ADD and motivation

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http://add.about.com/od/adhdthebasics/a/Motivational-Issues.htm

I just found this article about the often self-asked question of pre-diagnosed ADDers.
For me it has to do with the ongoing fight with myself about the thought of : “Am I lazy?” when I try so hard to get things done and at the end of the day so little is done. But on the other hand: If the task is interesting and exciting-whooo!: I am full of energy and can work for hours!